I'm sorry that you and everyone else who has tortured me since 2010 have so much to feel bad about.
Some of you don't feel bad. Some of you feel bad sometimes.
No matter how anybody feels about what has happened to me, what has happened to me will never be over.
I hope that what has happened to me never happens to another person.
Sometimes I think about whether I'd rather be the victim of this situation, with how horrible it is, or one of the perpetrators, who have so much to feel bad about. I think it has to be worse to be me, but I am glad that I don't have a reason to have someone like me on my conscience.
Guilt can sometimes finally make a person refuse to accept feeling guilty anymore; "Fine, I felt really guilty for a while, and I have had enough of it. Oh well." I haven't tried to make people feel guilty about what's happened to me, just to take the part of the responsibility for it that is theirs.
If you have a girlfriend, I hope you'll be responsible and happy. If you don't have a girlfriend, I hope you will someday and that she will be right for you. She won't be me.
Copyright L. Kochman, August 1, 2015 @ 7:25 p.m.
