The Fact of Me: September 2015

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

The cyberstalker "Big Bambu" continues to try to make a date with the police station.

September 30, 2015

That's a picture from tonight of another message that Big Bambu has sent to my YouTube blog.

It's disgusting that people get nominated for things and have their careers advanced because of the code that the conglomerate can get from their names.

September 30, 2015

I'm not starting trouble with FKA twigs. I'm not talking about her.

The entertainment industry is the stupidest, most vindictive, most trivial industry in the world.

What about all of the people who are working and talented, whom the conglomerate is ignoring just because those people don't have names that the conglomerate can pervert?

I think that I have been understanding and decent about this issue for a long time, but it seems as if the issue is never going to end, and that's wrong.

Boston

September 30, 2015

Public bus 2286

772 XJ3

929 BZ7

Public bus 2260

3CK 668

314 VP2

447 VH8

297 PR7

Will this be the next place that throws out my application as soon as I send it to them?

September 30, 2015

Those are pictures from today of part of the website of the training program "Found in Translation."

I know that even worthy causes have to get their funding from somewhere. I'm just curious as to how long I will be forced to be unemployed because people are scared to hire me or because the conglomerate has made them hate me.

The conglomerate and the Pauls

September 30, 2015

That issue of Time magazine was published after I had met a nonfamous man named Paul and talked to him and a female friend of his for a few hours, once. Nothing happened, and I never saw or talked to him again.

The conglomerate then turned Paul Rand into a code story, to terrorize any man who might ever think about talking to me in public. The conglomerate has done everything that it possibly can to isolate me from humanity; then, when my isolation drives me to the same abusive and degrading people over and over, the conglomerate attacks me for that, also.

Read all about Sofia Vergara's wedding to someone who hit on her through magazines when she was engaged to someone else!

September 30, 2015

That's a picture from today of the front cover of the Fall 2015 issue of Martha Stewart Weddings magazine.

Ms. Vergara is in a custody battle over embryos that she created and had frozen with her ex-fiancé. It doesn't seem that her relationship with that ex-fiancé was a casual one.

Personally, I think that her ex-fiancé is being unreasonable. If she doesn't want the embryos that she created with him to be implanted in a surrogate, then the embryos should be terminated. What is her ex-fiancé planning to do, create children with the embryos even though she doesn't want them and then sue her for child support? Even if he's not planning to try to get money from her for them, how will those children feel, growing up with a famous biological mother who famously didn't want them to be born?

She's quite clearly not that nice of a person, so it's not surprising that she doesn't tend to date nice men.

Those are pictures from today of the first part of the Twitter account of the man to whom she is engaged.

That's a picture from today of the latest post at Ms. Vergara's Instagram. I'm sure that she meant it as a joke. However, I don't appreciate how often the conglomerate likes to try to humiliate me as part of its jokes. I don't feel humiliated, because I know that what's happening to me is not my fault. However, I understand that they are trying to humiliate me, and that makes me angry.

The conglomerate has a lenient standard for its own behavior and for the behavior of the people who promote its agenda, and is mercilessly and hypocritically punitive toward me.

Bernie Sanders

September 30, 2015

That's a picture from today of posters that are right outside of Central Square Station.

Bernie Sanders might not be a billionaire. I don't think that he's personally hurting for money, though, and it seems to me that he is not above using my folky status, and my being from Vermont, to get publicity and support for his candidacy, even while he abuses me the way that the conglomerate does.

I was born and raised in Vermont; he wasn't. Vermont being a very small state with a small population has meant that a lot of people who would be nothing special in a lot of other places have socially and politically dominated the state for decades. Some of what they do is positive; however, there's a reason that most of the adult children of the transplants from other states fled Vermont as soon as they could.

https://www.google.com/search?q=brain+drain+vermont&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&hl=en&client=safari

That's the Web address for the pages of Google search results for a search of the term "brain drain vermont."

I have said before that I always have been and always will be a Democrat. It gets frustrating being abused year after year by Democrat politicians.

Journalistic failure

September 30, 2015

Every time that the conglomerate media distorts a news story to be about something other than what the story is ostensibly about, it is journalistic failure.

77BK, parked near MIT

September 30, 2015

There were vertical letters in front of the numbers; I think the letters were "RS."

There was a man in the driver's seat, and a man standing on the sidewalk, talking to him through the passenger's side window.

I haven't taken a lot of notes today, because it's raining. I thought that I should mention that car, though. Who knows if those are dangerous men?

People like "Big Bambu" serve a purpose for me.

September 30, 2015

They illustrate how vicious the behavior that the conglomerate causes is.

Big Bambu's behavior is blatantly, literally offensive, emotionally abusive, lewd and invasive. No interpretation from me is needed to illustrate how horrible his behavior is. He also illustrates what many people feel about and how they treat people who have ever been diagnosed as having a mental illness. Discrimination against people who have been diagnosed with a mental illness at any time in their lives has never been recognized for what it is the way that other discrimination has; it permeates society and makes everyone who has ever been diagnosed with a mental illness vulnerable to abuse.

I'm sure that he knows that I'm not delusional; however, he is not at all concerned about what anyone will think of him for the horrible things that he says about me. Even if he did think that I was delusional, everything that he says would be horrible; what does it mean to stalk, sexually harass and verbally abuse someone whom you think is mentally ill?

I want him to leave me alone; if he doesn't, and if YouTube doesn't block him from writing to me, I will go to the police and ask them to contact him and to tell him to leave me alone. Until he does leave me alone, I can document his horrible behavior toward me as another example of something that the conglomerate has deliberately inflicted on me.

"Big Bambu" doesn't seem to think that I'll go to the police about him.

September 30, 2015

Those are pictures from today of messages that the cyberstalker "Big Bambu" has continued to send to my YouTube blog, "Please don't kill me."

I don't live in a pretend world, although the world that I live in does have a lot of sad things. Also, he is not the first person who has tried to use my blogs to get attention for himself by abusing me, so what does that say about him?

It might take me a while to get around to going to the police about him, because I have other things that I need to do and it will probably take a while to figure out how to give the police a way to contact him and to tell him to leave me alone. I would also rather that YouTube just block him from my blog so that I don't have to deal with him anymore, so I might work on that first.

I don't want Big Bambu to write to me anymore. He is also not the first person to try to defend his disgusting treatment of me by saying that my blog is publicly accessible, so he can write whatever he wants to it. People who use the publicly accessible phone numbers and addresses of other people to harass and stalk those people can't defend their behavior by saying that their targets are asking for abuse by having phone numbers and living somewhere, or that their targets are crazy for objecting to being abused.

This is getting annoying.

September 30, 2015

That's a picture from today of part of the first page of the Yahoo website.

I haven't used Yahoo that often over the past weeks. When I don't use that search engine, I don't have to look at the many inane things that it puts on its front page.

What I have noticed when I've used it lately is that someone seems to be using "Dear Abby" captions in a snide way about me.

I'm nobody's mother-in-law; if I were, my son or daughter would either be a very young husband or wife or I would have been very young when he or she was born.

Obviously, no matter how "needy" I get, it's never enough to prompt me to steal someone's boyfriend or husband.

As for drama; I don't ask for all of the attention that I get. The conglomerate has lived in a hysteria of hatred about me for more than 5 years; I wouldn't want all of that attention even if it were positive attention.

Pope Francis

September 30, 2015

Gay people have the right to get married. Being denied that right means denying them legal recognition of being human.

Gay people get discriminated against everywhere in the world, up to and including being killed.

You have no business infiltrating countries under the guise of giving spiritual guidance when what you're really doing is preaching human-rights-abusing propaganda and encouraging people to commit crime.

I doubt that Kim Davis's legal representation would lie about her having met with you. The last thing that is needed for that situation is for her to continue to be given support for her discriminatory behavior by powerful people.

___________

I just published this page, and maybe it needs a correction. Could it be that Kim Davis's legal representation is harming her by telling lies?

This is the Web address of an article that I hadn't read before I published this page;

http://thinkprogress.org/lgbt/2015/09/29/3706790/liberty-counsel-kim-davis-retraction/

Preliminary pages

September 30, 2015

Please read them, including what I have written about people who hack my phone.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Ben Affleck

September 29, 2015

I'M NOT GOING TO DATE YOU.

The male employee who harasses me at the Pine Street Inn

September 29, 2015

He has coughed at me twice tonight. The second time, he was a few feet from the mat that I'll be sleeping on tonight, on the floor.

He's been told repeatedly to leave me alone, and he hasn't.

I did not get a bed through the lottery at the Pine Street Inn tonight.

September 29, 2015

Neither did a lot of other people.

It will be like this until the summer.

Mara Lane

September 29, 2015

You do have a bad memory; you keep forgetting that I could have been dating Jonathan Rhys Meyers after he broke up with the last serious girlfriend that he had before you, and that I could have taken him from you after he started dating you. I'm not a bad person, so I don't do things like that.

It seems to me that part of the vindictive anger that women like you try to pass off as justifiably self-righteous, moral outrage is just the pouting of your bruised egos over knowing that your men are with you because I told them "No." It doesn't seem to occur to you how fortunate you are to be with men whom you love and who love you, no matter who has rejected them. Maybe you were never rejected, miserable and alone enough throughout your lives to know to what it feels like just to be glad that you have someone; I was.

"Big Bambu"

September 29, 2015

Those are pictures from today of messages that the cyberstalker "Big Bambu" has sent to my YouTube blog.

I'm thinking about talking to the police about this stalker. I have done that before with particularly aggressive cyberstalkers.

It's unfortunate that YouTube has not taken responsibility for fixing whatever it is that's allowing him to continue to write to me, despite all of my attempts to block him. He can blame YouTube if he gets police attention for something that YouTube should have stopped before it got to this point.

ROB LOWE SLEPT WITH AN UNDERAGE GIRL!

September 29, 2015

That's a picture of a CBS article that discusses it.

This is the Web address for the article:

http://www.cbsnews.com/pictures/celebrity-arrests-they-wish-they-could-forget/3/

20 hours of community service? That's it, that's all he had to do, while the conglomerate never stops screaming about literally everything about my past?

The conglomerate code of "22," which promotes child molestation, is yet another example of the conglomerate perverting something that I wrote AGAINST child molestation.

The conglomerate years have resurrected Rob Lowe's career, and he has attacked and tried to humiliate me over and over.

Now he's in another show called "The Grinder." It's a new series, starring him.

Mr. Lowe is a child rapist and illegal pornographer who never even had criminal charges brought against him for what he did.

First Lady Michelle Obama

September 29, 2015

"6" is an anticonglomerate code number.

There are people at the White House who are taking advantage of the fact that you have better things to do with your time than to memorize code. Somebody gave you the number "62 million" and suggested that you create another project for that number; is that what happened?

Robert Pattinson

September 29, 2015

People should not let their children pose for pictures with you.

What are you doing?

A few months of the attention that maybe you always thought that you wanted from me, and you want to turn me into mincemeat? What did you think was going to happen? Did you think that I would topple helplessly into love with you, the way that I have done with precisely none of your predecessors?

I don't know when you will understand that there's nothing in life that's more important than doing the right thing. Knowing what that is isn't always easy; doing it gets easier the more practice that you have at it, and the more you understand how important it is.

What are you trying to say these days, "Shut up, you snaggle-toothed biddy?" You should have thought of that before.

What do you and people like you think of me? I don't like to think about it; maybe I should:

"Poor Lena, she's so old. She'll be so grateful to finally get sex."

Then you get offended by what I say, perhaps because you haven't thought about my age and life experience and many disappointments meaning that I know not to settle for the wrong person, the wrong time, the wrong treatment, things that are guaranteed to make my life worse.

Nissan

September 29, 2015

STOP PROMOTING SEXUAL ABUSE!

Famous, female bullies

September 29, 2015

That's a picture from today of part of an online article from this year.

Every year, I am more grateful that I am not like women like this. I know that they like to think to themselves, and to make other people think, that I'm a sad, famous wannabe who will only ever be famous for naked videos to which I never consented.

I didn't want to be famous at all; not by the time that I was in my late twenties. I had gotten over the insecure, pathetic obsession that is understandable when naive teenagers have it and truly sad when adults have it. The last thing that I would ever want is to be like these women.

Their lives are so truncated by their superficial way of thinking about the world that I don't even know if they can understand what I'm talking about. I don't think of them as part of an "In" crowd. I think of them as part of a vapid, deplorable gang of destructive, self-obsessed, vicious, stupid people.

"Big Bambu" continues his gentlemanly attempts to get attention.

September 29, 2015

That's a picture from today of messages that the cyberstalker "Big Bambu" has continued to send to my YouTube blog, "Please don't kill me."

If there is a way to block this person from sending me messages, I don't know what it is. I have tried everything that I know of.

All she does is sit around and write all day.

September 29, 2015

There are probably people who think that about me, and dislike me because of it.

It's not true. Also, there are people who write all day who get paid for it. Something isn't necessarily more or less real work depending on whether or not the person who does it ever gets paid.

I have never wanted to be a full time writer, which is why I keep trying to get employed doing something else. I am not unemployed by choice.

There are some jobs that I know that I shouldn't take. I don't think that I should work in a coffee place; I'd drink all the coffee. I think that fast food places would also be like that for me.

There are also a lot of places that would not hire me. It's discouraging to have a work history that reads "Harassed and fired. Harassed and fired. Harassed and quit." That's what happened, and I won't say that it's my fault.

Boston

September 29, 2015

80122

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HS229 number of a Boston Public Schools bus

22V Y79

DHAJJ I never said that I had size D breasts. The entire "D" conglomerate stupidity started because of something that I said in 2012, which was that people who thought that I had size D breasts definitely had not seen the SICK, SADISTIC, ILLEGAL videos of me and would be disappointed when they did. It was meant to be funny; I thought it was funny, anyway. Ever since then, the conglomerate has not stopped screaming about "D." All I have to do is say something, and the conglomerate will insist that the opposite of it is true, no matter how glaringly obvious the conglomerate's lie is.

399 LC9

(?) 447 There's a letter in front of the numbers.

3GJ 978

Public buses 2269, 2277

Journalistic failure

September 29, 2015

It is journalistic failure every time that the conglomerate distorts a news story to be about something other than what the story is ostensibly about.

Yeah, I'm SO scared of Donald Trump.

September 29, 2015

That's a picture from today of part of the first page of the New York Times's website.

What's he going to do to me, be a rich male while I'm a poor female?

Isn't it interesting that someone who pretends to be independent and "for the people" and says whatever he wants because he doesn't need donations CHOOSES to be part of a group of bullies even though he doesn't need to do that for financial reasons?

Preliminary pages

September 29, 2015

Please read them.

Monday, September 28, 2015

I didn't get a bed through the lottery at the Pine Street Inn tonight.

September 28, 2015

Even the waiting list after the lottery is over has a lot of people every day.

I'll be sleeping in the lobby, getting up at 4:15 tomorrow morning.

I didn't sleep at all last night. This morning, I went to On The Rise, had some breakfast, changed my clothes, and fell asleep sitting on the couch in the kitchen/livingroom there for a few hours. I slept through lunch. I slept through everyone talking. I slept until a few minutes before they closed, at 2:00 this afternoon.

The average amount of sleep that you get when you sleep in the lobby is about 5 hours.

Robert Pattinson

September 28, 2015

I WILL NOT accept being blamed for it if you break up with FKA twigs.

President Obama and President Putin

September 28, 2015

Your ties agree, which is bad.

What has happened to me hasn't happened to you BECAUSE I'M POOR. It's not all right to videotape people in the bathroom NO MATTER HOW POOR THEY ARE.

Boston

September 28, 2015

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151 BB7

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771

Public bus 2203

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433 KA3

822 VH9

VCY 2443 Virginia

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2253 Public bus

223 PH3

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939 KV2

Intentionally corrupted colleges

September 28, 2015

That's a picture of ads at Central Square Station.

Cambridge

September 28, 2015

3690 VX

M41-221

VGP-9473 from Virginia

162 LW7

970-683 I think from Rhode Island.

I have written and talked about it honestly when the conglomerate's torture of me has caused me to be out of control.

September 28, 2015

I was then accused of the conglomerate of "bragging" about my behavior, when what I was doing was trying to accurately document everything that's happened.

I have also tried to change the way that I deal with stalkers. I don't confront them nearly as often as I used to; I write or talk about them from what I sometimes incorrectly judge to be a safe distance and then I leave as quickly as I'm able. After an entire day of being coughed at, there are times when I lose my temper, but I do that a lot less often than I did for at least the first 3 years of the conglomerate's torture.

I don't lie about what happens during the incidents that I write about.

The UN has a terrible record for corruption and sexual abuse in the countries that it's supposed to help.

September 28, 2015

It hates me because, when I pay attention to it at all, usually I talk about some instance of its corruption or other abuse that it has inflicted on people whom it's supposed to help. You couldn't pay me enough to work with or for the UN.

Maybe it should be dismantled.

Those are pictures from today of the entire first page of the website for the UN's "Global Goals."

Corporations should help to pay to stop child poverty.

September 28, 2015

Why don't they stop spending money to promote child abuse and start spending money to help children?

http://mobile.nytimes.com/2015/09/28/world/americas/obama-tackles-poverty-and-sexism-in-un-speech.html?_r=0

That's the Web address of a New York Times article from today.

The New York Times should stop promoting sexual abuse.

I hope that President Obama will not think of or approve more mean acronyms.

"keep your pussy clean," says the stalker Big Bambu, whom first the White House and then the conglomerate media encouraged

September 28, 2015

Those are pictures from today of messages that the cyberstalker "Big Bambu" has sent to my YouTube blog, "Please don't kill me."

I can't erase the messages. I can't stop him from sending them to me. I have written to YouTube about him and about the apparent misfunction of the "Highlights" section of my blog. Nothing is stopping this stalker.

Cambridge

September 28, 2015

222 D

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Boston

September 28, 2015

968 DK8

221 JV1

998 XV2

Wet Floor sign in the lobby at the police station

September 28, 2015

I just got to the police station. I asked the officer at the front desk if I could sit in the lobby until 5:00 a.m. He said "It's all right for tonight, but we have a huge problem with people doing that, so don't make a habit of it."

I hope that the Pine Street Inn won't make a habit of barring me when a guest of the shelter threatens to beat me up.

Sunday, September 27, 2015

Boston

September 28, 2015

221 NK2

123 LX2, parked next to a Project Headstart

469 PE7

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161 CX7

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122 JB3, parked next to a school

Preliminary pages

September 27, 2015

Please read them.

It's bad business for the movie industry for so many people not to be homeless.

September 28, 2015

I know this because I was the only person in the movie theater, watching the previews for movies that have mean and stupid jokes about me and PEOPLE FROM MY PAST WHO CAN'T HELP IT THAT THEY KNEW ME!

As for the jokes about me; the joke about the hair that looks like pubic hair on the head of a woman who is having chemotherapy is the sort of thing that someone like Drew Barrymore, a woman born and raised in highly paid captivity, would think is funny instead of disgusting and degrading.

Other than that, it wasn't that bad to be in the theater. I could take my shoes off and put my feet on the back of the chair in front of me. I could laugh loudly at everything that I thought was funny, and be the kind of person who is a nuisance when there are other people trying to watch a movie. I COULD have done those things; I admit nothing.

From smart to stupid: the career decisions of a young, Hollywood actress

September 27, 2015

It's as if she's doing everything that she can to ruin what being the star of The Hunger Games movies did for her. "No, I'm not brave or resourceful or supportive of the idea of being a strong woman, and I want everyone to know that I hate Lena just as much as all the men who aren't as smart as she is."

Maybe I could have thought of a nicer way to say "The men of Hollywood are jealous of my intelligence and are dealing with it by endlessly calling me a slut," but I will not sleep tonight and am mercilessly abused every day, so I'm not feeling creative about how to tell the truth right now.

Human rights lawyers arrested in China

September 27, 2015

That is a picture from today of part of an article about China, from the September 24-September 30 issue of the free newspaper, The Epoch Times.

This is the first that I have heard about human rights lawyers being arrested in China this year. I don't read the major newspapers every day; however, it seems to me that there are a lot of things that have gotten reported by news stations and on the front pages of major newspapers that were less important than the arrests of innocent people in China. Human rights lawyers are not the only targets of those arrests.

While I was writing this page, a man walked past me and coughed loudly and repeatedly.

I don't choose excerpts or supporting information for code purposes.

My options are to hurt people or to kill myself.

September 27, 2015

The conglomerate's treatment of me means that I unwillingly bring the conglomerate, with all of its abuse, into the life of everyone whom I get to know.

My only other option is to kill myself, which I think about every day.